I am better...

..., much better , thankyou.
And how do I know? I got my appetite back!! The way I ate today would put a wrestler to shame, as I am actually TRYING to pack on the pounds!

Bkfst: one cup oatmeal with milk + half banana
Snack: 4 hershey kisses swiped from the secretary's desk
Lunch: one cup rice + one cup tofy mushroom curry + one cup tea + two cream puffs
Dinner: one cup rice + lentils + cauliflower curry + my downfall in the form of lots of sweets of various kinds.

See, nothing healthy, portion sizes are OK too, its the uncontrolled binging on the sweet stuff.
No, I havent learnt self-control at all, get a box of chocolates or any other sweet sugary syrupy thing in front of me and its gone in a blink of an eye.

Am planning to do atleast an hour on the elliptical to make up for today.
There has to be a way to rein my appetite, to have more self-control. There is a website where if one doesnt make goal, some amount goes to a company you hate- sort of like negative reinforcement. For eg. if you want to stop smoking and are unable to quit, a dollar amt set by you goes into some cigarette company. I will have to find that website and see what they have for people who want to lose weight.

Because honestly, if you told me that for every pound I lost, so much money would go to a charity of my choice, thats not enough incentive any more- I would just give you the money upfront. I have tried that before- lose weight and go for vacation or buy a new wardrobe or lose so many pounds before a family reunion- not worked for me. Now I need a kick in my rear to take control.

Which I will from tomorrow- no more sweet stuff and get on the elliptical again.